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The change in routine, the expectations, & the unpredictability of Christmas chaos give Cale SO much anxiety. We prep, we plan, we structure, we provide alternatives ... he just can’t do it.
When you’re stressy and agressy then Christmas gets kinda messy.
Things were different this year though.
We weren’t together. And though he did panic with anticipation in the days leading up to it, he called Christmas morning and couldn’t have been sweeter.
He communicated that not knowing what he was getting was creating stress and he needed us to tell him. So we did. We told him his gifts over the phone.
No magic.
No surprises.
No hustle and bustle.
No surprises.
No hustle and bustle.
And we were met with “Thank you, Mom and Dad. I feel better. I love you so much. Merry Christmas and goodbye.”
Tonight we are together, just the four of us, opening a few small things alone in a dark, quiet hotel room. He couldn’t be happier.
It might not look like everyone else’s Christmas. It might not look like what *we* ever imagined even. I wont pretend we haven’t grieved that. But with no magic ... and no chaos... our son found joy and peace in Christmas, and isn’t that the point anyway?
All is calm, all is bright. Beautiful boy.
#NoMatterWhat
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