It's that time of year again... time to train for the marathon.
This will be the third year in a row that I've started training, though I've yet to run the race. HOWEVER, the past two years I have been really struggling with anxiety and literal, diagnosed, PTSD, and running was one of my triggers. And although I enjoy running and had really wanted to accomplish that goal for myself, part of it was more about being something else, proving something to someone else, in a weird, twisted way that my disease helped me make sense of.
THIS YEAR... this year... is different. I am free. It's a new freedom that's only gently been tested, but it is freedom nonetheless and I feel much, much more ready to do this. And ONLY for me. I don't do things for ONLY me very often, but I will this. And I won't do it alone (bonus!!).
I had really hoped to get started last week, which would give me two extra weeks before the County Music half, buuuuttt... my throat hates me. For 8 days I have been suffering with the most horrific throat/ear pain. I honestly didn't realize a sore throat could hurt so badly. Like... making deals with God, willing to birth a hippotamus with no epidural, or chew off my own foot, bad. I started with fever and body aches, then moved on to the swollen glands. Strep test and culture were both negative. Doc said just stick to IB profen, which was just NOT going to cut it. I saw another doctor yesterday (two actually) Mono test negative. But finally got a steroid shot in the keester, a super-dose of antibiotics and strict instructions to stay in bed so my eardrum didn't rupture. FINALLY... relief today. (Nearly) pain-free! I can move and breathe and eat and everything!
So... now that I'm off my deathbed, I think I'm ready. I'm a wee bit weak still and Nathan may not get home before dark so I will probably save my first road miles for tomorrow. The hubs has loaded up my MP3 player with "songs that make you want to run" and they really do! Still have all my gear (minus a distance tracker... I should be looking for one), Oakley has a retractable leash so he can go with me (he isn't my "official" running partner... Leslie is going to be my weekend buddy!). I'm ready.
Let the encouragement begin! :)
3 comments:
Go Amber! That's one of my goals once I can get off this weight that many years of med's and hormonal craziness has brought on. I look forward to hearing your progress :)
Nin Jiom Pei Pa Koa (ninjiom-hk.cwahi.net) may be another solution to sore throat. i know a lot of people use it, its also non alcoholic, though it's effectiveness is not as good as alcohol based cough medicine, but it's still good to use on not so serious sore throat. Hope you are getting well soon!!!
You've got my encouragement! Go Amber!
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