Just so everyone is clear... Nathan still has NOT gotten his orders for Iraq. As of today, there is still a 50/50 chance he will be deployed, but the other fella has another week or so to get medical clearance before they officially replace him with Nathan. They are still treating him as if he is going and have asked him to make sure I am prepared for a last-minute decision. *IF* he goes, he will leave one month from today.
I'm actually doing really well with the whole thing, I think. I just want to knoooow. That's the part I can't stand. I hate that if he does go, he will miss so much- our anniversary, Halloween, Thanksgiving, his birthday, Christmas, the twins' 2nd birthday, my birthday, our second beach trip, etc. And with all three kids being older this time around, I'm afraid it will have a bigger effect on them. But I'm not scared. I already know I can hold the fort down without him for six months. And it is easier to do things at home when you aren't on anyone else's schedule. I know we will be in regular contact. I know he really, really wants to go and I want him to have that experience. I just despise the not knowing part! I'm good either way, just let me know! Arrrggg.
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