The upside?

Being depressed is depressing, so even though our house has been hit with ANOTHER string of bad luck- particularly Layla, who can't seem to catch a break- I'm trying to find the positive side of it instead of let it beat me back down.

Layla started yelling for me at 3:30am Friday morning. When I got to her room, her exact words were, "I think I accidentally threw up in my bed." Poor thing. It was her bed, her hair, her pjs... it was everywhere. I got everything cleaned up and (cautiously) moved her to my bed with our standard "puke bowl" in between us, some Pepto, a glass of water, and a warm rag. She wore that bowl out every 30 mins. And within 12 hours, victim#2 was under attack... me. Lovely. In between timing my own sickness, to care for her's, Brynn & Cale start saying, "My tummy hurts, I need to hold you", "My tummy hurts, I need Sprite", "My tummy hurts, I need to sleep in Mommy's bed"... I was pretty sure they just wanted what Layla was getting, but as quickly as it went from her to me, (and they weren't eating which is HIGHLY unusual) I'm still keeping a close eye on them to see if any of those statements actually come true.

So, bottom line... This sucks. Having a child this sick, sucks (especially her, after everything else she's been thru in the last month), being this sick sucks when you have three other people depending on you. We had a whole weekend planned that I was REALLY excited about- I was going to shop BY MYSELF yesterday, which I really need to do since I have purchased about three gifts so far, we were going to see The Princess and the Frog after school (we have been waiting on this movie forever! I had a photo shoot this morning that had to be cancelled, Sutton's bday party this afternoon that we DO NOT want to miss, Titans tomorrow; and I really just want to shut down and cry.

But that's going to make for a really long two months if I just wait for Nathan to come rescue me (even though that's all I really want). So I'm pretending that something good is going to come out of this crap. I did get some good snuggle time yesterday. Layla napped on me, twice. We slept together, with her on my chest and that was really, really sweet (this was before I was sick myself or else I probably would have thrown her in the floor in a rush to the bathroom when the need hit me). The twins were respectfully quiet when she and I were both sick on the couch, and would come cover us up and rub our legs or kiss our heads, SO sweet. I've lost 4 lbs. in less than 24 hours so far... that's good. Um... I have been drinking a ton of water, which I need to be doing anyway. ??? Yeah, that's all I've got. I guess it's something, right?

Hurry up, Nath.